I appreciate that chemo has strange effects on people but all it seems to have done so far is break my circadian clock and given me horrid mouth ulcers!

Sorry I memtion the mouth ulcers all the time as it is hard to acoid their omni presence and I’m very conscious of how hard Lee tries to produce palatable food – it must be so demoralising for her to go to all the trouble and then watch me with tears rolling down my face with the discomfort as I struggle to eat the food taking well over an hour for the simplest of food.

I am however determined to eat every last morsel put in front of me both out of respect for her efforts and also as I am aware there may come a time when I am too ill to eat and I will need the help of food eaten now to get through that battle and recover the other side.

After chemo yesterday I was feeling bushed but needed to catch up on my ‘e’Mails and a few phone calls and also read up the papers on the computer so I did that whilst Lee made an early dinner. Gammon steak cut into tiny weenie pieces, mashed potatoe, brocolli and eggs – Lovelly Jubbly even with regard to all the razor blades in it!!!

The strange thing was after just over an hour struggling through that I was wide awake!

No that is an understatement – I was completely wired and it was not until 06:50hrs. that I went to bed!

I just want to say sorry for copping out at times and leaving Lee and friends to cope!
Any help and support YOU can give her will be hugely welcome.
I do make a lousy patient!

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Posted by: Greg Lance-Watkins
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